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I know I promised that I would put up pictures of my trip from Japan ages.
ago, but I didn’t get around to uploading the hundreds of pictures that I took. And besides… A lot of things has happened since then. I just want to say my trip was amazing. It would be a little weird to describe how much fun I had and stuff when it’s been almost 3months since I went. I also went to Seattle but that too was also almost 3months ago… I’ll share my memorable moments perhaps sometime later. Right now I want to get more important stuff out.

First of all I’d like to apologize to visitors for deserting my blog for almost 3months without saying anything. It was rather quite rude. I am also sorry to my friends- I hadn’t realized your links for being blog buddies wasn’t coded on to the site so it wasn’t on for a while. But more importantly, I didn’t contact any of you recently to see how you were doing… I will get to that really soon I promise, it’s just my gmail went crazy on me while I haven’t been checking it too often from not being active on the net so I’ve been getting hundreds of spam mail! And my host for my design site automnEternel Millenia, has disappeared from the web for a while and her hosting is suspended. I haven’t heard from her in a long time and my site is down so I can’t do anything at the moment on AE. My alternate email was hosted on iigaken, but since iigaken is down that email isn’t working either so there is currently nothing I am able to do
Secondly, I want to give a huge thanks to my amazing hostHACHI for just hosting me. I don’t thank her as much as she really deserves but I hope she knows how thankful I am she’s my host. I am very honoured to be hosted by someone like her and I really want to thank her for not getting all worked up about me not updating. I just needed some space for a bit

So the big question… Where was I for the past 3months after I got back from Japan and Seattle? Hm… The easiest way to put it was- I was doing nothing. Yes, absolutely nothing. I’ve been in quite a nutshell these days just moping around, lying on my bed listening to music. Hoping everything would go away. One of the main things that had been bugging me was when I found out my uncle on my dad’s side has cancer. And it’s spreading really fast. Apparently the doctor said he doesn’t have much time and basically gave up on him. Stupid asshole. What kind of doctor gives up on a patient? No matter how bad it may seem, the doctor is suppose to motivate the patient. Stupid asshole. I feel really bad for my dad. He can’t even visit him because my uncle lives in Korea… My dad told me my uncle is in a super-depression mode and won’t talk to anyone and he’s losing all his hair.. Wtf. I just saw him last year in the summer. I was thinking why all of this was happening. First my fourth uncle, second my grandpa on my mother’s side, and now my second uncle. But right now, I heard that he got a little better. I’m so glad and happy. I’m not going to lose faith.

Today I found out I failed my physics class. I had a 38% average. All I can say is wow. Ever since I got back from Japan I’ve basically bombed every single quiz and test. I also failed some tests in Chem, so my whole science mark right now is 61%. Yes 61% the lowest I have ever received. I still have finals that can boost up my marks but I’m not going to rely on it at all. Wow, let’s wait ti’l my parents see my report card.

For some reason I seem to turn away from my blog when I need it the most. I find that so weird because…. My blog is the place where I let myself be who I am. I just don’t feel like doing ANYTHING these days. I’m just so sick of everything.

I came back yesterday at around 8:50pm. I’ve been up until now because I’m listening to the cds that I bought from Japan. Phwee! I have many adventures, pictures and things I bought to share(if I can get to them). I hope to post everything later, when I have more time. Right now I’ll listen to the rest of these cds and go to bed… I’ve been up almost 48hours and it is not helping my jetlag~